Friday, December 5, 2008

Friday, November 28, 2008
CLASS OF 08
Today i was very disappointed in my class. Our classmate died and yet and still we choose to be hasty and shiesty towards one another. Through out my years at Canton High School i've been labeled as the stuck up bitch that no1 likes, or the person that think she's too much but most of the ppl that think that about me has never sat down and actually had a conversation with me lol ain't that something. The ppl that kno me will tell u i'm a laid back cool person and will try my hardest to help u when i can, but i can be a bitch when i have 2, don't get me wrong. So what i'm saying is you don't know me so if you're not goin to try to then what you say,or think about me, or whatever I do is totally Casper the friendly ghost...lol ya digg yaaa.....But anyways....i really would love for our class to get better and ish but we have ppl in our class that seems to live for mess. We are young ADULTS now not HIGH SCHOOL KIDS.....Y hold grudges for some shit that happened 4 years ago lol damn let that shit go and go on with your life i'm pretty sure it wasn't that damn important. But if u guys hadn't noticed OLD ppl r not the ones DYING now its the YOUNG ppl, WE gotta get our ish together. I'm not sayin lets all hold hands and sing kum by ya my lord, or be best friends and shit but we can atleast have a gathering when everyone is mingling with one another and not have a group right here and a group right there. I wanna love my class so bad but i can't cuz most of the ppl don't know me and i don't know them and thats a damn shame.
Friday, November 21, 2008
Damaged
People always say that it's oh soooo hard to move on from somebody that you truly did love....Yep that's true. People often say, "How do you love someone, that hurts you oh so bad?" Well, I don't have the answer to that, but I've asked myself that question a couple of times before. This person could be playing games with your heart....played games with your mind and made you feel unworthy about yourself, but yet and still...you still love them. Yep, it's hard being the only one in love in your relationship and it's hard trying to move on from that torture and despair that you maybe facing. I've seen it myself. It's hard when you really do love somebody, but that somebody DOESN'T love you back. That can be the most terrible feeling.....but it's funny how you stay stuck on somebody who ain't even worth your time........But then, somebody else comes and turns your dark days, into lighter ones and giving you what you wanted out of the last person and that's mutual feelings for one another. But even then, the person that came before this one stays stuck in your mind even while you're feeling this person because it's like.."Well I got feelings for them, but I'm gonna suppress them because I don't want to get hurt again like last time!" And then you make the next man or woman pay for the last person's mistakes and that's not kool at all. Past relationships or past NEAR-relationships are supposed to be a life learned lesson in life and it's supposed to influence your present in a POSITIVE way. Don't let the new person pay for the old jackasses games. You let them do them and be a dominant force in yo life. It's okay to be cautious about the decisions you make in your next relationship and it's okay to be afraid to be hurt again....but don't be scared to fall in love again.....A heart can get broken many times....but somebody out there will have a first aid kit handy....to fix your H-E-A-R-T cuz it's D-A-M-A-G-E-D!
Nov. 7, 2008
LOVE starts with a SMILE, grows with a KISS, and ends with a TEAR. DON'T cry over anyone who won't cry over you. Good FRIENDS are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget. You can only go as far as you push. ACTIONS speak louder than words. The HARDEST thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else. DON'T let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff. LIFE'S SHORT. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it. A BEST FRIEND is like a four leaf clover, HARD TO FIND and LUCKY TO HAVE. Some people make the world SPECIAL just by being in it. BEST FRIENDS are the siblings God forgot to give us. When it HURTS to look back, and you're SCARED to look ahead, you can look beside you and your BEST FRIEND will be there. TRUE FRIENDSHIP "NEVER" ENDS. Friends are FOREVER. Good friends are like STARS You don't always see them, but you know they are ALWAYS THERE. DON'T frown. You never know who is falling in love with your smile. What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry? Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them. Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end. Most people walk in and out of your life, but only FRIENDS leave footprints in your heart.Remember, every minute spent angry is sixty seconds of happiness wasted.
Oct. 31, 2008
I'M YET PRAYING FOR YA. YOU SAY ONE THING BUT DO ANOTHER YOU FAKE GET IT TOGETHER. I ONLY HAVE A COUPLE OF MORE DAYS IN SCHOOL AND ALREADY I CAN SEE TURE AND FAKE FRIENDS BUT THAT'S NOT WATS IMPORTANT IN LIFE I SEE MANY PEOPLE ENTERTAINING THE WRONG THING IT'S NOT ABOUT WHO'S DOING THIS AND THAT IT'S ABOUT U AND ONLY U IF EVERYBODY ATTEND THEIR OWN BUSSINESS THE SOCIETY WOULD BE A MUCH BETTER PLACE. SOMETIMES U HAVE TO ENCOURAGE URSELF. I HAVE JUST LOST ONE OF THE MOST IMPORTANT PEOPLE IN MY LIFE AND DON'T THINK SHE WILL EVER COME BACK. WHY? BECAUSE SHE LISTENED TO HER SO CALL FRIEND/SISTER BUT IT'S OK I STILL LOVE BOTH OF THEM BUT I LOVE MY BABY MORE. THIS IS A NEW CHAPTER IN MY LIFE AND I'M YET PRAYING THAT IT'S A SUCCESS. BUT GUESS WHAT I'M STRONGER I'M WISER I'M BETTER MUCH BETTER I MADE IT. CLASS OF 2008 EVERYWHERE. SO IF U FEEL GUILTY AFTER READING THIS THEN SHAME ON YOU, BUT IN THE END DONTAVIOUS TERRELL WATKINS IS YET PRAYING FOR YA.. NOW I REST MY CASE, ANY QUESTIONS.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Love U, Thank U
CONGRAULATIONS CLASS OF 2008!!!! I'M AT THE TIME IN MY LIFE WERE I'M ABOUT TO CLOSE ANOTHER CHAPTER IN MY LIFE. I HAVE HAD SOME UPS AND DOWNS BUT THROUGH IT ALL I MADE IT THANK U LORD. U KNW OTHER PEOPLE TAKE LIFE FOR GRANTED TALKING ABOUT WHO THEY DON'T LIKE, WHO TALKING ABOUT THEM, WHO WITH CHILD, AND THIS AND THAT. BUT I HAVE CAME TO REALIZE IT'S NOT ABOUT THAT IT'S ABOUT THE MAN UPSTAIRS AND THATS THE GOOD LORD AND IF U AINT GIVING HIM ALL THE PRAISE U AINT TALKING ABOUT SHIT IN DONTAVIOUS WATKINS BOOK. BUT THROUGHOUT MY LIFE THERE HAVE BEEN NUMEROUS OF FRIENDS THAT I HAVE HELP ME ACCOMPLISH MY GOALS AND WAS THERE FOR ME WHEN I WAS DOWN AND I JUST WANT TO SAY I LOVE U AND THANK U
Friday, October 17, 2008
Five Words
Life is so short we take life for granted people these days just dont understand the words LOYALTY, RESPECT, FRIENDSHIP HONESTY OR RELATIONSHIP... Friends are betraying each other now days friends are like a pair shoes u be seen with them too much and they start fade away, let me define the word FRIENDSHIP for those of u who dnt understand a friend is a person thats there for u no matter wat through thick and thin and someone u can trust. Females arent the only one being messy these days niggas are being messy to u hang out with this nigga everyday but then he want to betray u, i just dnt understand that u with this girl everyday and the next day yall into it about some nonsense(over some boy, clothes, he say she say, she hating on me he hating on me) FUCK THAT people are dropping like flies around here and u worried about some shit like that. Yall concern about who ur man and girl messing around with thats not wats important in life focus on YOU AND YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH THE LORD. These days u have children acting like grown folks and grown folks acting like children. The way the ECONOMY is today u just cant make it with a high school diploma hell u need at least one degree hell u barely can get a Wendys job with a high school diploma, i just dnt understand the economy anymore, people we need to stop taking life for granted stop focusing on the STUPID things in life and wake up and face reality the lord is about to take us to a new and better place and if ur not ready im afraid that ur gonna get left behind. RELATIONSHIP lets talk about that because some people dnt get a lot of that, im here to tell u aint Nobody faithful anymore i mean lets just be honest because if he or she aint already cheated hell dnt put it past them because they will, and then men sleeping with men women sleeping with women (the ones u least expect) not judging any of u but wats wrong with the world, when women get a good men they dont wanna do right but i mean us men do drive yall to cheat so i mean wat can i say. RESPECT oh my god dnt none of us knw wat that mean because we disrespect each other,church, mothers, fathers, elders, even the president of the united states. HONESTY come on people read the bible its a sin to lie dnt lie i mean if u cant tell the truth then dnt speak at all. LOYALTY many of us dnt knw wat that word means well let me give examples: lets play show and tell im tell u you people are gonna show(stabbing ur nigga in the back, sleeping with ur girls man) shall i go on INDEED I SHALL. Loyalty is a word that we all shall take into consideration if u dnt knw then u better ask somebody.
Friday, September 19, 2008
My Heart
I don't ask for much y'all, I realllllllly don't!!!! So why do I always tend to feel un-worthy or non-superior when it comes to meeting someone, liking them and then falling in love with them. Damnit, everytime I say that I'm ready for love, I'm not. I see my friends ((Courtney & JP, in particular) happy and in love. They fuss and fight and deep down, they still love each other. That's what I yearn for. I mean, I need someone that I can share all my secrets with, someone special, who will love me just for me. I need someone, who will never leave me lonely. Someone faithful, who will love me as their one and only. I need someone to share my ups and downs and even through the bad time, they will always be around. BUT so many times, i've opened up my heart. Only to have someone tear it apart.....So I don't ask for much. I'm not one to bug you. I'm not to blow up your fone with calls. Communication is the key to anything. Without that.....what the fuck do you have? An emotional connection and a physical connection is good enuff....but communication is a big key to anything. I just wanna be happy!!!!! I get happy one minute, then the next time, I fall flat on my skinny ass!!!!! But I wonder have I found that special someone or is the jury still out on that!!!! We'll just have to see for ourselves, but all I want is to be happy!
Friday, September 12, 2008
Life’s Rule
*Keep God close at ALL TIMES...he will always be there and won't let you down.* Worry about yourself and don't let others get to you, no matter what.* Try your best to stay away frm mess/messy ppl.*Live your life whether others around you are not doing the same.*NEVER let a person tell you you'll be nothing in life when you can be.*Work your hardest to achieve in life and be successful at all that you do.*NEVER set your standards low...'it will work, it will do, it will be alright, ect' isn't good enough.*Struggling makes you tougher...''I CAN'T'' is never an option.*If getting to a person's level/standards means to decrease yours...it's not worth your time.*Man doesn't have the right to judge others...God's job.~!~My Motto: If he/she didn't birth you into this world...they don't have the authority...permission... or privilege to put you down~!~**REMEMBER: God takes you thru hell to get you to heaven**Life is all a test...hope you pass!!!!!!
Friday, September 05, 2008
Sorry!!!!!!!
I love you so much...knowing I wanna always be with youYou make me feel so good inside...the way you look me in the eyeThru thick and thin you have stuck beside me thru it all...You've been my bestfriend no matter what...As much as I keep things frm you...you stay hereI've never wanted to hurt you...I'm sorry for things i've put you thru...all the mistakes i've doneThru them all...you've accepted me into your heartI never want you to leave my side...but after what i've doneI don't see how you've continued on...Put my all into everything that has happened...Cherished every single moment...we've shared togetherI cry for the bad...and for the good because of my happinessI'm so sorry for everything...I hope we have the same love as beforeI've given you the key to my heart...I NEVER WANNA LOSE YOU... ^_^

Lord, Make Me Over

I have learned that only through God will I be happy. U must seek God in everything u do and everything else will work out. It seems like its me against the world. It seems like my life is a mess. I try to find happiness in other things and it fails me everytime. But I realized if it was up to the devil i would have been long gone. The devil kept placing thoughts in my head like I dont have a purpose to live. But God is keeping me here for a purpose. I just want to be what he wants me to be. Without God, I never would have made it. God has spared my life so many times but yet and still sometimes i don't even tell him thank you. The devil wants my soul but that's a lie. I refuse to burn in hell. God is my friend. He's all I need and I just want to live for him. Because he's the only one that's haven't left my side. I am my biggest enemy. I should have been dead but it's only by his grace and mercy that I'M STILL HERE! But in spite of everything I been through and what i'm going to go through i still just wanna say, thank you!!! MY NAME IS VICTORY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Ke' Eric Deshawn Small

Born Ke’Eric Deshawn Small. At the 5:45 am at the Madison General Hospital to LaShun and Eric Mack. I came out the womb determined to be somebody. As a baby, I was a “crybaby” or at least that what my mother says. I have smooth, brown skin and good, curly hair. Those were the years. I was a smart child I did all my work. In kindergarten, I made all A’s! In elementary I was still smart making A’s and B’s! I graduated and went to middle school. I loved middle school. I won Mr. 6th grader and I was so happy. I got to ride on the float in the parade with my big smile. I matured and passed to high school. High school was the days. I was on the modeling squad and in the science club. The work got harder but I still continued to do well. Although I did make a couple of C’s. It seems as if those four years went by so fast. High school was designed to prepare me for another step in life. A step called college. Now here I stand in college praying I continue to do well and get a better education. I’m trying to become a better individual and become something in life!

Friday, October 3, 2008

(((((Life)))))

Life is what u make of it. It can a bring smile and pain. Troubles and trials are waiting to come. Life is simple but also complex. Life is short but some live forever. Some take life for granted but other cherishes it. Life is so precious; precious as gold. Life is the privilege and shouldn’t be taken lightly. The right to life is a blessed. Life is fun but can be overwhelming. Some say my life is over but my life has just begun. Yes, my high school days are over and my childish ways has faded away. Entering into college, I was ready for the real world. Through life I have learned life lessons. Trust no one but God, God is your only friend, and he will never leave or forsake you. Live has much to offer a lot can be gained. Don’t cherish materials things because they will soon pass away. Life come so slowly but leaves so swiftly. One can have their life taken. R.I.P DAN! Life is the best structure of everything. Living life can make you mature and grow for the better. It is so sweet but can be bitter. It is so full of light but can bring about darkness. Eternal life should be everyone’s one but other find other things more important. Life can bring strife. It can even cut like a knife. Life is what I’m living and I’m enjoying every moment of it. It feels good to be here!

Friday, September 26, 2008

Life At USM

The University of Southern Mississippi is cool. The first week was very fun and exciting. Southern Miss…to the top! The GEWW leaders were so excited and hype. I came here from high school not knowing what to expect. Everyone told me that college life will be the best years of your life. The campus is real beautiful and unique. The fountains are the life of campus. The campus is quite big I got lost a few times. Some of my classes are cool but others are boring. The cafeteria food is ok but I prefer chick-fil-a. Living in campus is a big responsibility. Waking up, studying, and washing is now your responsibility. Sometimes living on campus can be very boring especially on the weekend because many people go home. Living on campus, there are many decisions to be made. For example, going to the party or studying. It’s good that we don’t have a curfew. But there is a curfew for our visitors but that’s still good because some schools can’t have visitors of the opposite sex. Parking lots! It is so hard to find a park in a good distance of your residence hall. It seems to be one student parking lot to every five teacher/staff parking lots. And if u park in the wrong lot you will get fined. But overall, USM is a good school and so far I’m enjoying it. USM is my home outside of home. Southern Miss………to the top! Southern Miss……to the top!!!!!!

Friday, September 5, 2008

"Hurricanes"

Many had came and passed
But Katrina didn’t show any class
August 2005 she came
Left New Orleans and the Gulf Coast in pain
She hit as a cat three
Knocked down plenty trees
The government was nowhere to be found
The whole city had drowned
Rain, rain, rain
The levees broke
The city was under water
While many people was out looting
Some stood on their roof
Crying for help
Most evacuated but some stayed
Some survived while others didn’t
Bodies was flowing
Such a sad sight to see
I thought it was just TV
But it was real life
Left many in strife
Katrina was like no other
Didn’t show no mercy
Many got displaced
And still haven’t returned to the place
Many homes was destroyed
Still till this day
They are trying to rebuild
FEMA helped out as much as they could
But that still wasn’t enough
Katrina did the cities rough
Three years later
Katrina’s mark is still there
Then came another
A weird name he had
Gustav is what they called him
He struck the same places
Although, he hit only as a cat one
He bought the pain and much rain
The question was are the levees going to break?
But they stood strong
The city still flooded
But they had hope
Yes, they was prepared this time
They got them out
Bus full of peoples, not knowing where they going
They ordered a mandatory evacuation
Even Bush was presence
He was scheduled to speak at the convention
But it was postponed
Because of the bad weather!

Wednesday, August 27, 2008


We all started as freshmen
Walking into a place we have never been
Yes we was in high school
And it was kind of cool
Our title got us no respect
The upperclassmen kept us in check
The days flew by and the months rolled
And then we was refer to as sophomores
It was getting down to the core
But I had to continue this race
Because I didn’t want to catch a case
Time kept passing by
As if it knew how to fly
We was finally juniors
Saying one more year
Don’t get me wrong we had to shed some tears
We was faced with many trials and test
But still determined to do our best
We was all excited about going to the prom
But our biggest goal was to walk that line
Because the blind couldn’t lead the blind
Suddenly, it was our year
YES! 2008 was here
We were happy, sad, and overwhelmed at the same time
It seems as if we was at the finish line but there was still one more step
We had to do a senior project
This caused sleepless nights
But we continued to see the lights
OMG! May is here
We were all in cheers
Some had to shed some tears
Because the race started with many
But only ended with few
May 24, 2008
Was the happiest day of my life
For on this day I received my high school diploma
For some their race was over
But my race is still incomplete
I got four more years to defeat
!!!!!!!!!!!!!