Friday, September 19, 2008
My Heart
I don't ask for much y'all, I realllllllly don't!!!! So why do I always tend to feel un-worthy or non-superior when it comes to meeting someone, liking them and then falling in love with them. Damnit, everytime I say that I'm ready for love, I'm not. I see my friends ((Courtney & JP, in particular) happy and in love. They fuss and fight and deep down, they still love each other. That's what I yearn for. I mean, I need someone that I can share all my secrets with, someone special, who will love me just for me. I need someone, who will never leave me lonely. Someone faithful, who will love me as their one and only. I need someone to share my ups and downs and even through the bad time, they will always be around. BUT so many times, i've opened up my heart. Only to have someone tear it apart.....So I don't ask for much. I'm not one to bug you. I'm not to blow up your fone with calls. Communication is the key to anything. Without that.....what the fuck do you have? An emotional connection and a physical connection is good enuff....but communication is a big key to anything. I just wanna be happy!!!!! I get happy one minute, then the next time, I fall flat on my skinny ass!!!!! But I wonder have I found that special someone or is the jury still out on that!!!! We'll just have to see for ourselves, but all I want is to be happy!